Tuesday, September 21, 2010

A New Hat: Chronicle of the 5th (and Last) Edition of the Cancun Ironman 70.3, 2010

The Thursday before the competition: I had just finished two laps swimming in the ocean and a 4x1000 meter run, when I was biking back home.

It had rained and the streets were filled with puddles. By Las Americas Mall, there was a section that had gotten so much rain, it had covered an entire lane. A bus had just zipped up right before me and drove on the part where there was no water. I was right in front of the puddle and decided that instead of coming that close to the bus, I'd ride right through the puddle.

I never saw the pothole.

Needless to say, my bike made an interesting hat.

I sat in the puddle and the bus driver didn't even think of stopping. Another rushed on by, right after him and didn't care to stop.



Total damage: several bruises that started from below the left knee all the way up to the pelvis; bruise and scratch on the right knee; bruise in the crotch; left arm and hand scratched up and a lump on my right temple, from when the bike handle turned in and hit me on the side.

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"Look, this is your muscle," Dr. Wajid pointed out. The cursor of my leg's ultrasound rested on the half of the section of the screen where black cords ran horizontally across. "And this," moving the cursor over what looked to be grey scratches, above the cords, "is fat."

"Here is the bruise." The cursor floated above a black splotch that was surrounded by the grey scratches.

The bruise wasn't muscular, meaning it wouldn't affect the possibility of doing the Ironman.

For the first time in my life, I wasn't at all annoyed that a man should call me fat.



The morning of the Ironman, however, I had a shiner that was lit brighter than anything this side of Christmas: the colors went from vibrant purples to cornflour yellow. In the middle of it all, there was a section as big as my hand that rose up like a small hill, clearly marking where I had been hit the hardest.



In the transition area, Danny and I went to set up our places. I was able to see lots of friends I didn't expect to see as well as my two favorite elites/heroes, Michellie Jones and Oscar Galindez, before I got into the water.



Then, the male swim heats began. I looked at my Garmin: my pulse was at 83.


Because so many women were competing this year, our start was in a single wave.



The horn.



I was always surrounded by people throughout the entire swim, something that is unusual for me since I was one of the last to leave the water last year. I ran to T1 and saw more bikes racked still than last year. A good sign.

I put on my jersey and all of my gels, Gatorade sacks and Gu electrolite chews fell out of my jersey pockets as if I had been caught shoplifting at the supermarket. I quickly stuffed my pockets again, not minding what went where. I lifted my pant leg to put on a bit of Body Glide FX Warming for the pain.


I heard someone gasp. I guess my bruise looks pretty bad.



I grabbed my bike and ran.



The first 15 miles were absolutely wonderful. I was pedaling at a good pace, passing up people and it wasn't that hot.


When I was coming back from the first of two 25-mile laps was when things went slightly array. I was riding against strong winds that made my speed drop from 19 mph to 11 mph. The sun was still shining when I saw up ahead black clouds roll over the road, where the trees and asphalt marked the way into rainy shadows.

I was able to maintain my buoyant attitude when all of a sudden, something that I didn't want happening, happened.

Thump.

What was that?

Thump.

Was that the road?

Thump.

It's not the road.

I looked down and saw my back tire flattened under the rim.



I got off my bike and changed the tire. Some 20 minutes after I was on the road again, however, I felt my tire go flat again. And a hard fact slapped me in the face:



I have no more inner tubes.



I removed my tire, took out the inner tube and found the culprit: a metal wire. Why didn't I check my tires before I put in a new tube? I took out the tube and raised it high at the passing competitors.

Someone give me an inner tube. Please.

"Fumi!"

It was Fer Luna. He had come biking from the transition to collect stuff that people had dropped on the bike route. His haul was so good that he even had an inner tube someone had thrown out. An event mechanic came up in that moment and changed my tire. I knew someone was watching over me.

The rain fell in sheets but no one stopped.

On the second lap, with two flat tires and riding against the wind, I knew time was running out and there were hardly any competitors on the bike left. The road seemed so long and the return was weighing heavily upon me. I thought that if I could make it to KM 60, I would definitely be able to finish. And when I saw the last aid tent before T2, I knew I was close.

All the volunteers broke out into applause and cheers as I arrived and while I rode up the bridge back to the Hotel Zone, I almost started to cry.

In T2, Aline, event judge and friend, came up to me.

"Competitor 985, you have two minutes to leave transition. If not, you will not be allowed to run."

I threw on my shoes without washing off my feet: a fact I would well remember during the run; pieces of asphalt, dirt and rocks reminded me agilely at every step.

I took the first 10.5 kilometers with a slow and easy stride. I felt good and saw how many were walking their lap. It was when the sun was shining as if there was no tomorrow, with intense humidity. I knew I had to run light so that I could make it to the second lap. When that lap came, however, something changed within me. My body needed something else. Ice-cold water wasn't cooling me off anymore. The hydration I was consuming wasn't provoking anything within me. I didn't want to eat. I felt parts of me go numb.



But I kept repeating in my mind that the first 10 I had run easy while the next five I have to up the pace and the last two I have to give with everything that I've got.



The rocks in my shoes bounced around but I didn't want to stop and shake them out.

I can hold out.

I have to hold out.

I felt the smile that I wore a while ago melting and sliding off my face. Looking at my watch, I knew I wasn't going to make it within the seven-hour mark.

"Easy Fu," the voice in my head was saying. "Or you're going to fuck yourself over."

"Good job! Stay loose!" said a passing competitor, as he biked back to his hotel.

I have to finish.

And if I walk it? And if I don't finish? And if I stop and get the rocks out? Why am I doing this?

But my body continued on. Every time I was bathed in ice water, I felt my body cool for only a second only to feel as if it never happened. My head burned even with the ice in my cap. I needed to finish.

I don't remember this road having so many turns. When is this going to all end?

And then I saw the sign: 900 m to the finish line.

I kicked up my heels like I've done in all those training sessions these past three weeks and tried going as fast as I could. At the 500 meter mark, my friend, Irapuato, and the triathletes of TriBlueTeam were hanging out in their tent. When they saw me, they began to shout, rooting me to go on.

And that was when Irapuato shouted:



"I LOVE YOU FUMI!"



It was then that I knew who I was doing this for: I'm doing this for them.

I'm doing this for me.

I completely lost it. A hiccuping sob started to escape as I ran to the finish. Everyone on the way was applauding me and I couldn't stop crying. I don't know what they said. I don't know who they were. But I knew that they had never left me.

And like a bullfighter, I crossed into the plaza. The sun shone on gold embroidery that was my sweat. I stood in the middle of the plaza and took off my hat, the black "montera", and pivoted on one foot, turning slowly, with hat in hand. I saluted the plaza, which was filled with my people: everyone who gave me money for my birthday so that I could register for the Ironman; Willy, who was driving next to the run course when he happened to see me, reversed and shouted with emotion at this wonderful craziness I was participating in; the bikers from MTB Cancun, who came out to root us on; my friends from the Red Cross, who were there at the finish, waiting for me; the 3BT Triathletes with their drum and songs; the Go Cycle crew; my event official friends who were witnesses to my tears and all those who I carried with me and who could not be there. But there were those who I did not know: the volunteers at the aid stations; the man who doused me with cold water and offered to bathe my legs; the officials who rooted me on; my fellow competitor who said I was kick ass; the other who told me it was one mile to the turn; those who told me "good job!" to urge me on when my voice had, by then, turned into a soft whisper.

I throw the montera and it falls to the ground, the top of which points to the sky. A sign of good luck. I had conquered a pre-competition bike injury, two flat tires, torrential winds, blazing heat, humidity and my own demons. Counting this Ironman, it was the seventh time this year that I had done a long ride.

Thank you for being there for me. This one's for you.

Monday, June 21, 2010

On Father's Day: V Open Water Marathon in Bacalar, Quintana Roo 2010

Writing keeps me honest because you can say whatever you want to a person but when I reflect on what is happening to me, my written words are always faithful witnesses of my wanderings. The words I say are ink on the wind, something that I cannot hold in my hands.

The Spanish word for "remember" is "recordar", which comes from the Latin recordis, which means "to pass by the heart again".

And I want to remember.

The trip to Bacalar was baptized by Dami as "six hours with Fumi in a bus to go for a swim". Imagine a bus that picks up fare at every corner but instead of every corner, imagine it traveling 80 miles down the highway and you've got a pretty good picture of our ride: stopping on the highway in the middle of nowhere to pick up fare; stopping at every house in every little town; weaving in and out of streets off the highway. We arrived dead tired, about ready to eat even the pot of the pasta that Sonia had prepared for us.

Early that next day, we got marked and got ready. A couple of minutes before the start, I was growing nervous. I grabbed Yadira's hand before we jumped into the water.

I have to do this. I have to do this.

The horn.

I felt the water and concentrated on my rhythm. Sighting the second buoy was difficult as I fought against a slight current. When I arrived, where there were a ton of people a while ago, now there was only a man swimming with me. My clavicles felt weird, a slight pressure that I had never felt before. It was like a soothing massage at first which later turned into a dull pain.

When I finally arrived to the finish line to do my second lap, there were people who were just finishing lap 2.

And I felt embarrassed.

The people who were taking note of the competitor numbers written on the arms of the swimmers saw that, instead of going towards the finishers mat, I went onto Lap 2.

"Look, she's going onto her second lap," I imagined them saying. And as I passed the people who had come to root us on, I remembered something.

When I had told my father that I had done a 70.3 Ironman, the first words out of his mouth were, "And what didn't you do to come in first?" I had just swam 1.2 miles, biked 55 and ran a half marathon.

Why didn't you come in first?

As if finishing wasn't enough. I had to win. As if I wasn't good enough. As if all the training, the sacrifice and the suffering wasn't worth it simply because I didn't come in first place.

Son of a bitch. Fucking son of a bitch.

I repeated that phrase in my head like a mantra as a tear threatened to escape. And as I swam to the first buoy, I knew that I had to show him that I could do it. And more importantly, I had to show myself what I was capable of. I thought about all the hurtful things that my father had ever said to me. I remembered the humiliating punishments during my childhood and adolescence, when it came to me that it was Father's Day, the day we celebrate those men who give us their love and, sometimes, their blood.

And then it hit me.

Like that woman who did an Ironman six months after having fought off and conquered cancer, I remembered that I am not my circumstances. I am not my sickness. I am not my father. The Republic of Fumiko is a democracy of one and I decide when enough is enough.

And that is how I came to my choice.

Deep down, I believe that my father is good person who can be mean, for all the callus things he has said, but I understand that through that, he has given me the elements to be the person that I am. To fight for me and value what I am. That I can decide what to do with all his negativity. That he loves me and I, him. That I call the shots as to how far I want his perception to affect me and to accept that I can never change him. That there is nothing to forgive because at the end of the day, if there is no offense, there is no need for an apology.

My shoulders have been hurting for a while now and I knew that I would swim until my arms fell off my body. And when a kayaker asked me if I was alright, I just lifted my fist out of the water and pointed my thumb to the sky.

I didn't know how to find the words when Dami asked me, upon arriving to the finish line, how it went. An avalanche of emotions was let loose inside of me when I answered.

"Hard," I had said.

"Why?" Memo asked.

That answer was also lost on me.
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Sunday, July 20, 2010: Today I did my first competition of the year. Perhaps I didn't get the result I was originally hoping for.



Instead, what I do know is that I got a lot more.

Happy Father's Day.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

The Most Divine of All Arts: Chronicle of the 1st Edition of the Mayan X Tri in Punta Venado, Quintana Roo 2010

Out of all the elements, I've always identified with wind because of this innate compatibility I feel for it. That ever-changing element that surrounds you and breathes the coolest of breaths onto you and soothes on the hottest of days. The weekend of the first edition of the Mayan X Tri, however, brought winds that kicked up to a cool 38 kph (23 mph), making flying sand sting and feel as if your skin was freezing, without the chill.


The day before the competition, I was riding along the Hotel Zone and for the first time, I was scared for my life. The winds were so strong that as a 160 pound person on heavy mountain bike, I never thought I would feel that cold sweat as I did in those precarious moments. I felt the whole frame of my bike tilt too much for my taste and I was scared of being thrown into the way of a passing bus.

The pre-competition meeting was at the Canibal Royal in Playa del Carmen, just on the beach. Even as the sun set, we could still see the strength of the wind and the rocking waves crash violently on the sand. The most probable outcome was a duathlon: three kilometers trek, 20 kilometer mountain bike ride through the jungle and an 8 kilometer trekking route to the finish. Even when they brought out dancers from the local culture center, who performed a ceremony for good luck during the event, we all had a pretty good idea that the winds would not subside by morning.

As I lounged and mingled during the meeting and carb dinner, I was running into friends I hadn't seen in a year. People I used to ride with. People who I didn't realize that I had missed so much until seeing them again opened floodgates of good vibes.

Early that next morning, when we walked down to the race start, the ocean pounded wildly against the beach, making a duathlon an inevitable factor of the race. And as I had only sandals, my running the first three kilometers was out of the question.

But I wasn't satisfied. I felt the hunger within me.

I needed to swim.

Kicking off my shorts and sandals, I pulled on my cap and goggles and swam. My body rocked as the water under me was completely foggy. Every now and then, I saw large pieces of coral, the size of papayas, rocking freely in the water and rising before me as the waves pushed me down towards the sand. I remembered thinking that a year and a half ago, I would have been scared to death of this kind of water.

And now I welcomed it. Bring it on.

I got out of the water and waited with my team (Odin and his cousin, Monica) for the race start. Then, in a rush, they called the individual men up first, followed by the indie women and then the relays.

The whistle.

One by one, the heats sprinted off into the blazing sun. Odin went to wait in the transition tent while I waited by the start, on the watch for Monica.

It was when Monica came back that the race became that much more interesting. By this time, it was about 9:30 to 10 in the morning and the sun was barreling down on the jungle. When it was possible, the wind swept off the heat but it didn't happen often enough for those whose inner tubes had burst. Cyclists had to sweat it out, changing them maybe one, two or more times in the unforgiving heat.

I sat in the transition tent with Heriberto and Monica waiting for Odin and the other relays to arrive. As the minutes ticked away, we grew worried that something might have happened. Serrano, the competitor who would eventually come in first, came to the transition, doing the bike segment in less than one hour. If first place did it in that kind of time, how much longer would it take everyone else?

One by one, the indie men started running in.

Where were our relays?

Then, sporting a wide smile, Carlos Palazuelos (aka Tequilo and known personally by me as "Irapuato") comes running up, racks his bike and runs to the tent.

"A warm round of applause for the first relay to come in!" yelled one competitor in the tent.

We all clapped as the chip was taken off Irapuato's ankle. I hugged him, sweaty and tired, as hard as I could as he was doused with a spray of water. This man who did his first sprint triathlon in October and is going to do his first 70.3 Ironman this coming Sunday. The one who considers me his triathlon "godmother" for having inspired him to compete. The one who gave me back my faith in me as a triathlete.

I couldn't have been more proud.

They soon started coming in and the runners started leaving the tent. Odin was still nowhere to be seen.

One cyclist limped into the bike zone, his leg cramping on him completely. His face twisted in pain as some of those waiting with me shouted to the judges to help him. He labored with his bike as he lifted it onto the rack, every step causing him to wince. When he finally got into the transition zone and his runner finally got the chip off of him and ran, they laid him on the brush and massaged his leg. I ran to the box of ice cubes and pulled out handfuls. Prostrate and on the grass, it was hard to find where to stuff the cubes onto him so I tried to form a snowman out of the melting ice cubes, on his stomach.

I failed miserably, as the cubes slid easily off his stomach and onto the brush.

More relays started coming in and as the bikers sat in the shade, a glazed look started to appear over their faces. I pulled out bricks of ice and placed them on John's and Chitolo's necks. The ensuing "oh yeahs" started to erase the glaze from their eyes.

Then finally, a mustard yellow Pumas jersey came round the bend and rushed to the rack. I called Monica over and we pushed past the others so that she could put on the chip. She sprinted off into the jungle as I pulled Odin into the tent. As I filled my hands with ice cubes, he walked off and stood in the sun, a little apart from the tent, pacing and unsettled.

I went over to him and put the cubes on his neck. He turned and I felt the weight of the competition pour out of him. He had popped his back shifter, completely twisting it off with a passing branch as if it were a can of sardines, endangering his means to finish, while the sun had squeezed out every last ounce of his determination. He was exhausted and had been pushed to the limit. I held him as I told him it was okay, that he finished, that he was okay.

I went back and forth between the palapa and the finish line, all the while, meeting up with old friends and making new ones.

It was then that I saw Lety, fellow photographer, come into view over the hill and with beaming pride, I remembered how she told Maritza and I how we were her examples to follow. That because of us, she decided that she could do a triathlon too. And when she saw the finish line, her heels kicked up in a furious frenzy as she sped home.

I think her brother cried a little as he held her.

While I was back at my table, I looked over towards the beach and saw Marilupe sitting with a towel wrapped around her. She had just finished but her face held something behind her slightly knitting brows. Bety and Heriberto stood around her, talking animatedly.

I walked over and embraced her. I felt the still silence in her thin frame, compact and bottled. I knew that stillness. I've heard that silence before.

"I'm really proud of you," I whispered.

And so she unfolded: the frustration, the heat, the fatigue, the dehydration and then, to finally finish that torture with the sweetness of knowing that she did do what she set out to do. Contagious tears started pouring down her face and escaped from my own eyes as well.

"Why are you crying?" she asked with a sniff.

"Because Bety is standing on my foot. And it hurts. A lot."

The giggling brought on a group hug and Marilupe's sudden petition for a beer.

She was going to be okay.

You could choose to do anything you want: get mad, throw a fit, toss your bike into the nearest bush. But you didn't: you rode, you cried, you screamed into the wind, you damned the elements, only to get pelted in the face with sand, a bush, a low-hanging branch. And yet you chose to finish. You chose. And that is how the most divine of all arts, love, creates one of the most beautiful and most intimate of all sensations: personal triumph.

Welcome to my world.

Friday, April 30, 2010

On Fallen Stars and Shooting Stars: Chronicle of the First Edition of the 140.6 Cozumel Ironman, 2009

I was walking along the highway, where the bike leg of the first 140.6 Cozumel Ironman was taking place. There was no one around except for the triathletes who were biking by. I was sitting on the side of the road, snapping off photos, when a competitor saw me. He zipped close by and said on passing, "For you." His event water bottle rolled towards me as he sped off.

Last year, at the 70.3 Cancun Ironman, I was applauding one of the athletes who also rolled his bottle towards me. A year later, I did my first 70.3, that same event that I sat out and which had been the first triathlon I had ever seen in my life.

Like it or not, I took the deja vu aspect of this coincidence as a sign: this is an event I definitely have to do. Next year.
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The ferry ride out to the island of Cozumel (which means the Island of the Sparrows) was a bit turbulent. People who boarded joyful were a lighter shade of pale green when we arrived to port.

We got to the hotel, installed ourselves and proceeded to search for our friends who were to compete.

First stop: Daniel.

Daniel could be considered something short of brain dead. The road to becoming a triathlete can vary from person to person. In Daniel's case, a rush of inspiration from watching a video of the father-son team of Dick and Rick Hoyt (an inspirational pair of a father who tows his paraplegic son in a raft, bikes his son in a special two-person bike and wheels him to the finish in a wheelchair), added to the latent desire to do an Ironman "one day," clicked his trigger finger right over the confirmation box on his online Cozumel Ironman registration.

This was to be his first triathlon ever.

He was nervous and didn't look like he wanted to go to sleep. He wanted to stall and make the day, which was already night, longer.

We left him to make his various attempts to sleep.

Next stop: Bernardino (aka Bon Bon).

A short taxi ride at a ridiculously expensive price took us to Berna's hotel. He was calm as we took over his bed to talk shop and about the event. Empty water bottles stood like meercats on top of the mini fridge, leaving very little space for the cans of tuna, which stood in a neat stack on one corner. We took photos. We posed in his well/shower/tub. We made fun of his swim jammers which had a strange combination of autumn colored swirlies on brown, referring to them as his “go go” shorts.

We left Berna in high spirits, excited that the event had finally arrived.

The next morning, I rode out to Chankanaab Reef where the swim start was to take place. Triathletes, family, friends, press and a whole slew of people milled around the entrance. I found out later that the athletes weren't allowed to wear sun block due to the damage it could cause to the reefs and the dolphins.

Yes, dolphins.

Other events have fireworks: Cozumel had dolphins. Chankanaab is a dolphin park and the trainers were out early that morning with their flippered friends, almost as if they were trying to teach the competitors how to really swim. They performed their acrobatics with ease and received applause from those waiting on the pier, ready to start.

The elite start was to take place at 6:45 a.m. while the rest of the pack was to have a massive swim start at 7 a.m. One by one, the competitors jumped into the water, hanging on to the posts of the pier, awaiting the moment when the first edition of the Cozumel Ironman would officially start.

The horn.

The elites were already passing the masses when the horn blew. It took those select few about 15 minutes to swim the 1.4 km from the pier to the buoy and back.

It looked like a scene from the end of the world. Hundreds of people swimming and the water was dotted with pink and blue caps.

I reunited with my friends and while they walked, I biked to the nearest aid station on the bike route. I felt such a love in the air and such sportsmanship that a smile couldn't help shine from within. I looked each athlete that zipped by in the eye and smiled.

This was a show of an amazing group of people.

At the aid stations, my friends and I took over one tent and started giving out food and water.

The competitors would come shouting into the station, asking for "agua," gels, PowerBars and Gatorade.

"Sunblock!" shouted one woman. Claudia is a woman who can carry a bag that seems too small for all the things she has. Despite this, she had a number of things that the competitors asked for. Sunscreen and lip balm were two of those things. The competitor was from Dallas and as she happily smoothed sunscreen onto her arms and lip balm on to burning lips, she remarked how much it meant to her that the locals had come out to cheer them all on.

"Towel!" shouted another, whose sunglasses were complete drenched with sweat and needed wiping.

"Vaseline!" said yet another.

I ran over.

This was one I had.

I produced from my bike jersey pocket a bar of Body Glide, a necessity for swim burns and running blisters from shoes and wet socks. He looked at the bar rather quizzically. I explained.

"You can glide it on, like a deodorant," I said.

"I'd be a little embarrassed," he replied.

Oh...

A thick scraping of Body Glide was duly applied while my head was turned.

We got another "Vaseline!" who went straight for the small tub that Claudia had. One quick dip into the tub and the next minute, his hand was down his pants.

The five women who were their standing there (me included) looked after him in silence as he rode off. And as if she had been proposed to by Brad Pitt and then promptly rejected him, we all turned on her and scolded her, saying that she should have applied the said Vaseline herself.

We cheered on the competitors, even calling them by their numbers, promising the most fattening dishes in the most decadently gorgeous culinary spread known to man, with the tankards of cold frosty beers perspiring icy coldness would be waiting at the finish line. We even took names of those we didn’t know and cheered them on.

“What about me?” asked a tall athlete, with a smile.

“What’s your name?” I asked.

“Peter.”

A cacophony of sounds, screeches and whoops that sounded vaguely like “Peter” filled the air as Peter’s smile grew broader. He glided away, perhaps with a lighter heart.

It was time to move: Berna and Daniel had been through a second time and we wanted to be at the transition from the bike to the run.

I rode ahead into town and ended up taking a wrong turn, away from the transition. I mention this because had it not been for this detour, I would never have been able to catch up with a lone competitor who just happened to be walking back his bike as I made a turn back onto the main street.

“Do you need help?”

“Another stomach, maybe?”

It turned out that Chris started wretching his guts out at Mile 20 on the bike. By Mile 70, he couldn’t take it anymore and his stomach was fully on strike.

Had he finished, this would have been his fifth Ironman.

“I think I’ll stick to short courses from now on,” he had said.

I told him of my plans to do my first Ironman. About my first half Ironman experience. About nearly falling over when I found out Michellie Jones was in Cancun. About wanting to go to Kona and be in the same Ironman with Lance Armstrong.

“Are you a Lance fan?” he asked.

From the quietness of his tone, I knew he had something negative to say.

I hid my bubbling enthusiasm for the seven-time Tour de France winner.

“Sort of.”

And then it came out, as I suppose I expected it to one day: Lance Armstrong is a competitive diva. The story of a bike race in Colorado where Lance, holding onto first place, was barreling down an incline, screaming at people to get out of his way, most of whom were first timers in a competition. Then another. Then another. Story after story painted the moral integrity of this man that I had admired in a very unaesthetic light.

I reflected on what I heard and turned it over like a ball in a juggler’s hand. The ball stopped as I came to my decision: I’m not doing an Ironman for Lance. The only one I’m doing it for is me.

My mind’s made up: I’m shooting for Kona, with or without Lance.

We finally got back to the transition and I wished Chris and that separate entity which is his stomach good luck.

I hung around, now finding more and more athletes barreling into the T2.

“And I have to run a marathon now?” asked one woman incredulously, as her bike was rolled off by volunteers to the bike park.

By this time, Bernardino had run through already and Daniel had just entered the changing tent (a lot of completely no-nonsense, strip-it-all-off affair was going on inside) and ran off on his 26-mile “sprint around the park”.

As it were.

On the run, people of all walks of life lined the streets. There was such a festive air as I have only seen on Independence Day in Mexico City, people singing, dancing, high-fiving passing athletes.

At the turn, I saw Daniel run by and was ready for him as he came back. Jogging with him, I told him how absolutely proud I was of him.

“You don’t know how that makes me feel,” he had said. “I’m about ready to cry.”

Trying to hold back my own tears, I urged him on, telling him he is so close. And that we’ll be waiting for him.

I stared after him as he ran down the street, in innocent love and admiration, as I wiped my cheek dry.

I proceeded to the finish line to watch the first athlete to clock in to the sound of mariachi guitars. It is probably a bit cynical on my part but as these men and women legged it in, I watched how they were bending over at the waist, feeling the fatigue of having done over eight hours of physical activity, and later, some wobbling in what looked like a drunken stupor and that was really an uncommon mixture of dehydration and elation, and felt relieved. Relieved that those super humans were also mortals. That they did suffer pain. That muscles did hurt, even in them.

That maybe I do have a chance at finishing and with my head held real high.

So I watched human endurance in its maximum expression. One by one, they ran in: sweaty, aching and happy.

A nurse I had met at the bike aid station was there and she came up to talk for a bit. She told me of a competitor who had finished, one who was celebrating that day her six months of being cancer-free, with the Cozumel Ironman.

I wished I had asked what her name was. What the name of that brave woman was who had probably done chemotherapy, lost her hair, vomited on a daily basis the entire content of her stomach and decided that she was going to show the world how alive she really was by doing an Ironman.

I felt the light of her star shine all around us as the nurse and I bit back our tears. How I wish I could be as courageous as she is.

That evening ended with Bernardino coming in at the 13-hour mark and Daniel at the 15. Midnight, when I was biking back to the hotel, people were still running and people were still on the street, rooting those last athletes on.

I realized then that the human spirit is that much stronger if there is a destination. That Lance's star, though strong, great and had made a comeback after cancer, had waxed opaquely and fallen, next to that woman whose name I did not know and who had beaten her cancer in the elegant silence that media hype could never provide. That when stars soar around us, we must applaud.

My hands are black and blue from clapping.

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